Say I love you when you're not listening...

Dear Vin, I'm so sorry that I keep ‘thinking east thinking west’.
Yet this is the way I love you.
I'm so afraid of losing you again.
I'm afraid your heart will belong to the other girl once again.
Am I useless?
Will I be a good girlfriend who is suspicious?
I just want to listen some affirming words from u.
When u said, my heart will feel comfortable and happy :)
Yet your actions will make my heartbeat fast and anxious if it without any explanations.
I'm so afraid... You will be tired and leave me one day...